emotions.

yesterday, the emotions were crazy... I kept tearing up and sometimes crying... in the car, in church, at home, when dad coughed so bad he couldn't catch his breath... it was an emotional day yesterday, and I don't even know why. except that I am facing the everyday reality that my dad's health is quickly declining...
to watch him have to use oxygen everywhere we go... to see him not want to walk very much because the tumor in his shoulder hurts him when he walks, to see him cough so bad it hurts, to watch him sleep and rest way more then he used to... to watch that go getter of a dad I had a few months ago, slowly fade... it's crushing this girl's heart... I try my best to not focus on those things all of the time, and focus on other things, but it's hard not to remember when you hear the pumping of the oxygen, hear the coughing of your dad, and see all of this before your eyes.
I'm trying right now to remember the verse... that tells us that God won't give us more than we can handle... clinging to that promise right now.
¹³ No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it. (from 1 Corinthians 10:13, NKJ)

I believe that God is also talking here about the trials we go through in life...

whatever you are going through in your life right now, whether you feel like it's a big thing or a little thing, it's enough to matter to God, and He won't give you more than you can take... remember that this week.

Luanna

I've failed. but let's try this again.

I haven't posted on here... for like more than a year... and that's horrible... but I think I want to try this again. for real. I want to share with you the thoughts of a 16 year old, who is going through a rough time in her life... who is living the life of an eleventh grader, who is living the life of cancer patient's daughter, who is living the life as me, Luanna.
so, give me some feed back... if you'd like to hear more about me... or if this is a total flop :)
Luanna

busy week. 2 1/2 weeks till school. fair. bread. pillows. posts. :)

hey readers :) so, my goal for the rest of this year is to post way more often. and I know I keep saying that, but going into the school year and all I just plan to have a much more scheduled life. :) and in part of my schedule I hope to include blogging...at least 3 times a week.

this week has been crazy and its only Tuesday! yesterday we were basically gone from our house from 9:30 am to 11 pm. it. was. crazy. we went to my Grandma Englund's for the day and did sewing Home Ec up there and I made a pillow :)

part of the reason we all when up to her house, all being us four kids, was so that mom could get stuff ready for school. since that starts in 2 and a half weeks. (seriously, this summer has FLOWN).

then we came home for like 15 minutes and we chatted a bit with gma and gpa here and mom and dad and then I worked at my desk just a little bit and got a surprise call from someone which made my night, then we quickly ran over to Grandma Wright's for supper and then for Esther and I to make our bread for the fair! insane and stressful we were back on our way home after being over there for several hours..
then we turned back around and woke up this morning and took our bread and my pictures over to the fairgrounds :) I am really excited to see how they do!

that is my Onion Lover's Twist Bread that I entered...we entered the top loaf which turned out looking a bit better then the bottam one :)

today we are supposed to keep moving on things that need done, I have cleaned my room (dusted, vacuumed, new sheets on my bed, made my bed, etc..) and cleaned our bathroom...spent some time just sitting on the computer, and now I need to move on. :)

hope you have a lovely Tuesday!

happy wednesday :)

hey lovelies! :) How is your day going? mine is going pretty fantabulous... had my 2nd violin lesson today (with a teacher not in a video) and it went really well! its amazing how fast a 30 minute lesson goes by! im excited about playing even better than I do now, and working on my confidence to not be ashamed and play for others. :)

currently I am spending these minutes with my favorite little brother...he is sitting next to me on our futon and we are cuddled up with blankets! we read some books but now he is watching Garfield and I am hanging on the computer! its pretty fun!!

I saw this picture today on tumblr...and loved it! (www.back2december14.tumblr.com)

I love that quote :) such an awesome reminder....live life to it's fullest! love God...spend time with family...and do all these things. Of course, be sorry for things you do that aren't right, but don't be sorry about life...just live it to its fullest! :)

hope you are having a good Wednesday!

counting my blessings

hey beautiful readers!! life is bouncing for me right now! keeping busy with company and fun family times...and missing some people too.

I am so blessed to have such an AWESOME family. let me tell ya, I don't think ANYONE has such great family....nope. no one. well, maybe you? uhhh....----no. just me! I am so blessed. so blessed. I cannot even describe how blessed and happy I am! and I give all the praise to God for blessing me with them. and blessing me with a life I wouldn't trade for the world.

• HE is in my life!
• I have the best immediate family.
• I have the best extended family.
• I have been blessed with a beautiful home.
• There is air conditioning-about-everywhere I go.
• I have been raised in a Christian environment and around some of the strongest Christians.
• God continues to bring blessings into our life everyday even when we aren't looking.
• I have one more day to spend with some of the best family members ever and I can't wait.

I am SO beyond blessed.

hey, readers :) so, it has been another busy day around here! we have company coming in in about an hour so we have been getting ready for them. I woke up this morning and after a while just chilling in bed, I crawled out and went for a mile run. it was wonderful :) I hadn't done a cardio workout since Monday so I was definitely missing it.
I did my pe course on the computer, typing, got ready, oh and did my devotions, and some computer time in there as well :), ate some food, went to Grandma's for home ec, decorated cupcakes there, dad came and got us and we went to the bank to sign me up for a DEBIT CARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)))))))
Then practiced my violin, ate supper, helped clean up a bit, then worked on packing out stuff to move out of our room for the next 4 nights, then put sheets on the bed, cleaned the bathroom, vacuumed, etc, etc :)

loving this quote that I reblogged on tumblr a few months ago...(www.back2december14.tumblr.com)
Why fit in when you were born to stand out? -Dr. Seuss
also, some thoughts I have posted on facebook these past couple of weeks...

we have all been hurt by people...recently I have...but cling to Jesus and hold on tight to His hand. Surround yourself with people who love you and who won't leave you.. And fall more in love with God. He will heal your wounded heart. ♥

sometimes you are just not sure what the next step in life is. Or what your purpose is. Why here? God KNOWS why He put you on earth...hold His hand.


go find your dreams!! take Jesus' hand and just let Him lead you to places unknown. trust Him, and you'll never regret it :))


you are beautiful! God created you to be you.. And He loves you just the way you are. Don't try and be someone you aren't. Be that SOMEONE God made :))


we are always told to go after our dreams, and I certainly believe that:)) but, also remember that your dreams might not be the same as God's plans for you. the best thing to do is see what God has in store for you and just take hold of His hand and see where He guides you. :)) remember, He loves you very, very much. more than you will ever realize!




since I am SO behind on here...I will share a few pix of some things that have been happening recently :)

got to see these amazing girls again :) love them!

on our way to see the Cfam :) my besties Carly and Leah :)

all of us in the car :) minus Dad, Dennis, Elijah, Karson and Mom.
Back row-Carly, Leah, Me, Timothy
Middle Row-Esther, McKenzie, and Julie
that boy back there? he is one of my best guy friends ever.



my bestest friend and I at home ec last week :)

NEED this!

and for now, I shall say, goodbye :)

oh dear...this is so embarrassing...but, as you have probably figured out...I haven't blogged for a LONG time...too long. and I really want that to change. like a lot. for now, I will just write about how wonderful it is to live in such an amazing country...
oh, it has its faults and flaws...but nothing is perfect except God who gave this country to us. so we must spend hours praying and striving to help our country...even though its seems impossible at times. He will provide our needs and He will protect and help us.. even in the hardest of times. this is my prayer for today:

Thank you, Jesus, for allowing me and my family to live in a country like America. Yes, it has its faults and flaws, but nothing is perfect. Only You. We have freedom to worship You, dear God, and that is the most important thing. ♥

here is a picture from today...we have taken tons! if you have an instagram check my sister and I out.. luannajoy14 and naturalblonde12 :)

Happy Fourth of July! have a beautiful evening celebrating with your family and enjoy fireworks splashing colors in that beautiful black sky tonight:)