yesterday, the emotions were crazy... I kept tearing up and sometimes crying... in the car, in church, at home, when dad coughed so bad he couldn't catch his breath... it was an emotional day yesterday, and I don't even know why. except that I am facing the everyday reality that my dad's health is quickly declining...
to watch him have to use oxygen everywhere we go... to see him not want to walk very much because the tumor in his shoulder hurts him when he walks, to see him cough so bad it hurts, to watch him sleep and rest way more then he used to... to watch that go getter of a dad I had a few months ago, slowly fade... it's crushing this girl's heart... I try my best to not focus on those things all of the time, and focus on other things, but it's hard not to remember when you hear the pumping of the oxygen, hear the coughing of your dad, and see all of this before your eyes.
I'm trying right now to remember the verse... that tells us that God won't give us more than we can handle... clinging to that promise right now.
13 No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it. (from 1 Corinthians 10:13, NKJ)
I believe that God is also talking here about the trials we go through in life...
whatever you are going through in your life right now, whether you feel like it's a big thing or a little thing, it's enough to matter to God, and He won't give you more than you can take... remember that this week.